An Emotional Anniversary

emotional-anniversaryNovember 21st was a very special and emotional day for me. I spent my anniversary with the love of my life for the past 42 years. That, by itself, would have been enough, but my wife did something so unexpected, causing me to break down and cry. Perhaps I should share a little more about myself first. I identify as a female 50% of the time, and male 50% of the time. I’m what is called a cross-dresser (CD), or bi-gender (identifying equally as two different genders). Some CD’s don’t identify as bi-gender, but I do, and choose the pronoun “she” when dressed as a woman and “he” when dressed as my birth-given physical form, male. That’s who I am and how I feel most comfortable. I’ve been dressing this way since I was 5, always comfortable in both gender forms.

Fortunately, when I came out to my wife, she made the decision to support me as me! And it seems this support has grown greater over the years.

Yesterday, for the first time in my life, my wife bought me a new penoir set. I never imagined something like this ever happening in my life -- my wife buying Sharon (my female-identifying name) boudoir clothes without me present. She thought about what I truly needed and met those needs. I am so lucky to have her in my life.

We spent the entire day in NYC and saw Kinky Boots, which brought up ever more emotions. One of the songs in the show got to me. It was the song about not being like one’s dad. My dad really doesn’t know me. I tried to be something my Dad wanted me to be, but to do that, I couldn’t be me. At the end of my father’s life, like Simon(LOLA) in the show, I realized that I still loved him, regardless of the situation.

After the show, my wife and I spent the rest of the afternoon at Macys shopping for shoes. She bought a pair of flats and indulged me when I decided to purchase a pair of heels online.

We ended the evening with dinner at a wonderful restaurant on the East Side. At dinner we talked about the possibility of letting our daughter know about Sharon. This was not my idea, but we both agreed that further discussions were in order. I am not sure how I feel about letting Sharon out of the “closet,” although I’ve been out of the closet with certain friends for years.

Anyway, yesterday turned out to be, by far, the best, most wonderful, and most emotional day for me thus far. And I got to spend it all with the woman I love and have lived with for the 42 years! I look forward to the next 42 years with her by my side!

NewsCarrie Pizzillo-Stare